Hit in the gut, knots in  your stomach that cause your breath to go ragged. Despair, Darkness, a black hole.  Your sucked in with nothing to grasp. No one sees. Yor heart is aching, no it can't ache because it has been ripped out, stopped on, and shredded into a million microscopic pieces.

It was like you were run through with sharp teeth, and spit back out because you were not good enough. You try to see the light in front of you, but your own light from your self has been Extinguished. You sit and wait for the darkness to turn in to light , for a helpful hand , but the minutes just keep passing by.

You wake from  your own black Hole to see the one who hurt you walk by with a smile. You want for them to feel the pain that they gave you, to see you would do anything to get them back in your life.  But all you get is a turned sholder. Your obsession has betrayed you. You tell your self you are better off, but your heart refuses to give in. So you go back to your black hole to sit and wait for the inevitable.